Well it has been a long time since I blogged, but here I am. I really thought that life could only get better, but things are still hitting me. Things are still falling in front of me. Things are still moving in my path to distract me from God's purpose in my life. Small things, big things, even the most subtle things. A friend told me, don't take your eye's off of Christ for not even one second. Sometime I think if I do, I will fall apart. I watch my sister walk her faith out right now, with all she it going through, a child who has died, a husband who has left her for another women (at the most lonely time of her life), a world that is only getting worse around her, but she constantly tells me that she has not lost her faith in God. She says she will finish the race to see Jesus and to be with her son. We say we know we are not promised a tomorrow, and we say we know this and that we live as if we know this, but do we really? If I did, would I not run to each un-saved person and desperately tell them about Jesus. Just like the women at the well. She went back and told everyone about Christ and who He was... I want to be like that! I want to be bold and courageous for Christ. Help me Lord! I watch my sister and I know she will make it, but I also know I could not walk in her shoes right now. I don't think I am strong enough to endure what she is going through. Maybe I am supposed to lean from her. Maybe I am supposed to watch, listen and learn. I am praying for her. I love her very much. It angers me what is happening to her. It seems like it is always the meek and mild people who get hurt the most. Am I supposed to be learning something? Is this a test for me? Am I ready for what may come? I don't know, but I do know it is all in God's hands. I must trust in Him and Him alone. crazy as it might sound, it gives me great peace to lay it down at His feet.
Chris Tomlin "I Will Rise"
There’s a peace I’ve come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There’s an anchor for my soul
I can say “It is well”
Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead
Chorus:
And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
This is my life verse and I will lean on it for now.
Be Blessed,
K
